Living with a disability sometimes make me wish I had a cloak of invisibility
And even makes me get depressed about my disability instead of being grateful for my abilities
Life itself is something to be thankful for
But being given this disability makes it hard to say thank you Lord
He doesn't give one more than they can bare
That doesnt mean that it won't make one shed a few tears
Lord forgive me for feeling the way I'm feeling
I guess this is my way of saying I need some of your healing
I've never questioned you and I don't want to start now
But at times I can't help to ask "Why, When & How"
I know you love me Lord and I hope you know I love you
I would never put nothing or no one above you
But I just have to speak what is internal
Because you already know me inside and out without reading my journal
I don't want pity, Lord just continue be and stay with me
And to all my facebook friends, All I ask is that you pray for and with me
As I pray that we all could see beauty in what some call imperfection
Instead of giving ourselves a reason to give it our rejection
I never asked to be healed because I was grateful for who I am
But maybe healing is something that was and still is in your plan
My mom taught me to love myself wholeheartedly
And not just love a specific part of me
And I've done a good job of that so far
Never asked anyone to walk in my shoes
because some people couldn't go thru what I've been thru
But at times I wish I didnt have to go thru what I go thru
I'm saying all of this to say and show you
Life is life regardless of if you love it or hate it
We all have made it alot further than we thought we would make it
God give us lives so we might as well take it
And he promised never to leave us. His promise....he doesn't break it
I just had to vent because keeping this in would do more harm than good
With all that being said.......God still and will forever remain Good
